gender01

Late night gender thoughts hmmm. I was reading a response I wrote to an ask on tumblr where I kind of rambled about gender things. I feel like I never can word things that well, so my response sounded all over the place. But I was happy I could go back and read through it and see a tangible evidence of me working it out. I think about gender a lot and how I relate (and don’t relate) to my own. If I could describe how I feel, when I think about my gender identity - the introspection makes me feel like I’m sinking into a kind of nighttime darkness where I’m just a seamless collection of matter with a pair of hands and eyeglasses. Thinking about things like this makes me feel heavy - but in a way where I’m grounded, not sinking. If that makes sense? Anyways…I need to go to bed. Work in the morning!